I just realized today that it has been about 9 months since I last worked in my field of “architecture”. I put that in quotes because my last job was technically in exhibit design. Anyways, I also realized that I have not missed it. This realization is a bit troubling to me. I have worked hard to get where I am, but now that I have taken a step back from my career, I realize the work itself is not what I loved about the field when I was in college.
In Architecture School, we designed our own projects, we drew everything by hand, and made models. We also traveled a LOT! I loved college! I know there is a stigma around architecture students never been seen in the light of day, but that’s because we were having so much fun in the studio. We were passionate about our projects and our work, and surrounded by other passionate artists. Sadly, an architecture firm is anything but this.
Maybe that’s not entirely true, there are firms out there that capture the studio spirit. I just feel lost and a little let down it wasn’t all what it was cracked up to be. Lately, I find myself missing being at home. Not because I want to sit on the couch and watch full seasons of Gray’s Anatomy. I miss being in my studio upstairs getting lost in my drawings, lost in my art, while still having the time to have fun in the kitchen creating wonderful meals every night of the week. Man, I miss those meals every time I pop a frozen pizza into the oven.
I do not have a nice tidy answer as to where to take my career from here, but I do not need to have one just yet. In the meantime, I will just keep chugging along letting my sub-conscience work the kinks out. It’s good to reflect on your life from time to time and adjust the things that aren’t giving you much fulfillment. Then again I know I am a dreamer and you can’t chase down every dream. Happy Friday!